Someday I will sleep

Lately in our home sleep has become a luxury I can seem to afford.  In my lack of sleep I have learned MTV does play music videos but only at three am.  They also play Boy meets World reruns.  I am thankful for my dvr and Netflix as it gives me something interesting to watch other then infomercials at 3am.  I also need to keep several sippy cups full of water on hand for those late night night terrors. 
  Alex is still up every three to four hours at night for a diaper change and feeding.  This can last any where for thirty minutes to an hour.  Sometime he will doze off in the middle of a his bottle but if doesn't finish he is up in another hour. Which isn't thrilling.  There are some nights he likes to be up every two hours grumpy boy.  It doesn't help he has been fighting a cold for the past couple weeks and he has to be cleaned out a couple times a night.  He hates it every bit and screams bloody murder.  Poor kid. But has to be done.  Since he has issues with his heart we have to watch him closely especially at night so any weird noises wake me up.   
   Emme has been having night terrors every night.  Halloween always triggers it.  Don't get me wrong she loves the holiday.  But it is all the creepy decorations people put out that triggers it.  Other things trigger it too. Like skipping nap time too many times in a row, getting in trouble before bed (this happens a lot)  They start will lots of screaming.  She can be looking you right in the face with her eyes open but she is really asleep.  It like she is trying to escape or fight off something.  It hard to sit and watch it.  But watch I must so she doesn't hurt herself.  Trying to wake her up doesn't work you just have to sit and wait it out.  Sometimes it lasts twenty minutes or two hours. There times she scream so much she will vomit.  Sometimes she will take a sippy and drink water which stops her from vomiting all over her room.  She doesn't remember what the nightmare is about when it is done.  All she remembers is she was scared. 
   Livi has been sick lately.  We thought it was just the lovely cold we all have been battling this past month.  Every time we get better a couple days later we all get sick again.  She has been more cuddly then normal.  Not she isn't cuddly all the time.  This is a girl who loves to hug and sit in our laps.  She has woke up at night crying and wanting to be rocked.  So I get to sit in the chair and sing her songs.  One night she was so stuffed up she kept waking up so I started rocking her in the chair singing what hymns I could remember after about an hour.  I asked her where she wanted to sleep in her bed or the crib.  (She sleeps in the crib because Emme picks on her)  She said in your lap now sing Jesus.  Yesterday we took her to the doctor her cold has changed into a double ear infection.  There were no signs.  She didn't have a fever.  Never complained about her ears or messed with her ears.  I thought maybe Emme would she was complaining about her ears last week.  Nope she was fine.  Livi just showed signs of a cold.  Running nose coughing saying she didn't feel well. 
  Now I am starting to feel sick.  Not fun.  I am ready for this to be done.  I am tired of everyone being sick.  It also gets my anxiety up since our doctor told us that Alex's chances of getting pneumonia and fluid in his lungs are higher because of his heart.  So we have to be very careful with him during flu season. So if you are sick or feeling like it coming on don't ask to hold him please.  I would like to avoid a chest xray.  Which we were told if his cough doesn't improve we will need.  Kinda of scary and stressful.  You won't think he has heart issues by looking at him but his heart still has issues.  
   I miss sleep.  Some day sleep and me will be friends again.  I guess until then I guess nothing will get done at my house during nap time.  Just family nap time.  Well maybe not Livi is now crying which means she is missing a stuffie.  Or she needs more pain meds.